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Author: Anne Cassidy

Baltimore Burning

Baltimore Burning

The news had escaped me until after dinner. Baltimore was burning. The governor was declaring a state of emergency. The National Guard was moving in.

I have a daughter a dozen miles from center city, so the situation took on a greater urgency. But whose heart doesn’t skip a beat when the streets of a major American city are in chaos, when buildings are being looted, police attacked?

As is so often the case, the “cure” is worse than the disease. Or maybe the cure is the disease. Maybe we can no longer tell the difference.

I remember when Baltimore’s slogan was “The City That Reads,” a slogan too easily mocked with “the city that bleeds.” Now it’s the city that burns. But what city does not have this capacity? I think we’re all asking ourselves that question right now.

White Shoes

White Shoes

Before they are no longer new and no longer white I pause here to celebrate my new white tennis shoes. Anyone who has shopped for jogging shoes lately knows you can find plenty in day-glow orange or hot pink — but pitifully few plain white ones anymore. Even the sales clerks are apologetic.

My philosophy on shoes is that fit trumps everything, so I’ve had to swallow my love of the simple and inconspicuous lately to ensure that my toes aren’t scrunched and my heels aren’t slipping.

This year, however, there was a welcome confluence of fit and color, and I’m now the proud owner of white shoes (albeit with fluorescent green laces).

Not for long, of course. The toes are already smudged. But that’s a small price to pay for having them white to start off with.

The Signature of All Things

The Signature of All Things

Once again, I’ve just finished reading a book on Kindle. This little device, which I welcomed with a “be gone from me, Satan” comment when my brother gave it to me one Christmas, has definitely come in handy the last few years. I’ve noticed, however, and have described here, that I can’t seem to remember what I read on the thing!

That will not be the case with The Signature of All Things by Elizabeth Gilbert. I’ll remember this book even though I’ve never really held it in my hands, even though the length of it was not immediately apparent to me. (I don’t always pay attention to those little percentage marks in the right-hand corner.) I’ll remember it because it’s a big, messy, life-loving novel of a type I don’t read much anymore.

I’ll remember it for eponymous passages like this one:

“the signature of all things”—namely, that God
had hidden clues for humanity’s betterment inside the design of every
flower, leaf, fruit, and tree on earth. All the natural world was a
divine code, Boehme claimed, containing proof of our Creator’s love.

And for less splashy lines like these:  

Have you ever noticed how the most splendid
lilacs, for instance, are the ones that grow up alongside derelict barns
and abandoned shacks? Sometimes beauty needs a bit of ignoring, to
properly come into being.

I’ll remember it for the character of Alma, a woman who gracefully accepts disappointments and challenges and who at the end of her life says she was fortunate because was able to spend it “in study of the world. As such, I have never felt
insignificant. This life is a mystery, yes, and it is often a trial, but
if one can find some facts within it, one should always do so — for
knowledge is
the most precious of all commodities.”

Like all good books, this one left me feeling closer to the heart of things. It left me feeling more alive.

Freeze Frame

Freeze Frame

It’s 37 degrees as I write these words, with highs reaching only the mid 50s.  Not the most desirable temperature trajectory — with one notable exception. The cooler it is (within reason), the longer spring will last.

Take today, a wonderful juncture to freeze-frame — the azaleas just budding, trees just greening, the dogwood, redbud and Kwanzan cherries at their glorious peaks.

Speaking of redbud, the wild cousins of these suburban trees were in full bloom on my drive last weekend. They lined the road for miles in spots, a pinkish-purple haze along the highway.

I hope they’re in freeze-frame now too.

A Bevvy of Bikers

A Bevvy of Bikers

I heard them before I saw them. A low-pitched whirring not unlike what we experienced during the summer of the cicada invasion.

But these weren’t insects; they were bikers!

Every Tuesday evening from April through October, scores of cyclists (who should probably not be called bikers but I couldn’t resist the alliteration) skim along Reston’s suburban thoroughfares. They zoom by so impossibly fast that all I sometimes catch of them is a blur of movement.

If I’m close enough (as I was night before last), I might pick up a bit of conversation or laughter, a few words out of context. But other than that, the cyclists scarcely seem human. It’s as if person and bike have melded into one creature, a centaur of sorts. An impression that running in packs only reinforces.

After one or two packs swish by there is usually a straggler or two, huffing and puffing and bringing up the rear. They are the lucky ones. In it but not in it. Far enough away to know what they are part of.

The Promise of Spring

The Promise of Spring

The clouds moved in yesterday as Copper and I took a leisurely stroll through the woods. Clouds at sunset confuse the rambler, take away the visual cues of angled light. So we wandered farther than I intended, deep into the forest where the skunk cabbage borders tadpole pools.

I peered at the tiny creatures darting in the shallow water, thought about the frogs they will become if nature gives them a chance.

At this point in the season, all is potential. Nowhere is this clearer than in the woods. Here there are clusters of violets and carpets of spring beauties, but there isn’t the color and greenery you see in suburban yards. There are no flowering cherries here, no tulips or phlox. I did spot a couple of Virginia bluebells but those were in the community meadow.

For parts of our walk, we could have been ambling through late winter. But we weren’t. There was a freshness in the air, a humidity and promise. It was spring all right.

A Lilac, Finally

A Lilac, Finally

The lilacs in Groton, Massachusetts, hung their heavy heads over Martins Pond Road, and when I would go for runs in those days I would look forward to their company. You didn’t have to sniff each individual flower. The scent was everywhere, part of the general spring exhalation.

I’m not a lilac expert, but I can tell these plants aren’t suited for D.C.’s warm, humid climate. Still, I have a transplanted one my brother gave me a dozen years ago, tucked away in what would seem to be a perfect corner of the yard. Every year I scan it for blossoms; every year I’m disappointed.

Yesterday I tiptoed up to the lilac and searched for flowers. There were the familiar glossy leaves, the sprig of forsythia which somehow started growing at its base. I was almost ready to walk away when I saw at the very tip-top the palest hint of lavender. It was a slender, anemic-looking blossom, but a blossom just the same.

It has a way to go before it looks like this lilac, which I snapped last weekend in Lexington. But it’s a start.

What Used to Be

What Used to Be

Here’s what a walk is like in your hometown, every block a memory.

There’s my old high school; there’s my new one. There’s where I lived when I taught high school.

There’s where a fellow teacher lived who gave me a ride when it was raining.

There’s where my friend Joelle lives, a Bluegrass Trust beauty of a house with Buddhist prayer flags strung across the portico.

There’s the bakery that I always reach 10 minutes after it closes (thank God).

There’s the old house and the old, old house.

There’s the rag-tag park where we used to play. It smelled of earth then, and wet concrete. Now it’s filled with earth-moving equipment.

There’s the steep hill to the park, down which Dad once sledded, right into the creek.

I saw plenty of new houses, new trees, new people. But I hardly noticed them.

Instead I saw what used to be.

Perfumed

Perfumed

The soil is rich here in central Kentucky, dark loam that sends forth an incredible profusion of spring blooms.

But what has struck me this visit is not the soil but the air. It is, quite simply, perfumed. I walk the familiar streets inhaling at every turn.

There are great, heavily laden lilac bushes, their flowers just waiting to be sniffed. And then there is another smell in the air. Is it apple blossoms? Spirea?

Whatever it is, it conjures up for me a childhood spent outdoors, and in the spring of the year, those first warm days,  the heady plunge back into that natural life.

So it is not just the current spring I am taking in, but all the springs before.

Compressed

Compressed

Our late start spring means daffodils and cherries and pears all together.  It means the new spring green of the tree buds popping quickly, banishing winter grays and browns in 24 or 48 hours.

Wood poppies join the sweet woodruff. Forget-me-nots crowd the periwinkle.

It’s compressed, intense, riotous. It’s spring, finally.