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Author: Anne Cassidy

Sunday in Toura

Sunday in Toura

To spend two days in Toura is to go back in time and forward in time, is to meet at least a hundred people, none of whom speak English.

It’s to wander through a village on the edge of the Sahel under a full moon.

It’s to drink Beninoise beer, eat a freshly killed and grilled guinea fowl and learn two Bariba words: abwado and alafiya (both spelled phonetically here!).

It’s to go to Sunday mass and hear Ibo songs accompanied by hand claps, dancing children and an earnest drummer who looks up to heaven in rapture as he pounds out the ancient rhythm.

It’s to wonder what we lost when stopped living together in community.

Journey North

Journey North

Twelve hours on a bus has taken us to the north of Benin, where the call to prayer echoes from one mosque to another, where French and Bariba are spoken in one breath. So many impressions, so little time. Best today to capture it in pictures.

Bonne Fete!

Bonne Fete!

The first post of 2015 finds me sitting on a stool in Suzanne’s little living room. A ceiling fan whirrs above and traffic noise filters in from the street. The new year is getting lost in the shuffle for me, since I’m getting to know a new country, a new continent.

Take last night, for instance. In retrospect New Year’s Eve seemed a good day to arrive. There was a festive atmosphere abroad in the land, people preparing for the celebration. “Bonne Fete!” they said. Have a good holiday. (There’s another phrase specifically for Happy New Year but I’ve already forgotten it.)

What I hadn’t accounted for — but should have — was the racket that lasted past 1 a.m. Firecrackers that seemed to be exploding right outside the window, the high-pitched voices of Beninese women singing. Dogs parking, horns honking. And then, just as I was drifting off, roosters crowing.

It certainly was a memorable New Year’s Eve; I doubt I’ll have another like it. As for resolutions, mine so far are simple. Eat right, drink only bottled water and work up enough courage to ride a motorcycle taxi. I’m almost there!

In Benin

In Benin

In the last 24 hours I’ve been on two continents and in three countries — but I’ve finally come to rest here in Benin. The sun was setting as we took a walk, Suzanne showing me the route she takes to work, to church; introducing me to her favorite merchants. “Bon soir, Mama. Bonne Fete!”

The sights and sounds and smells overwhelm the senses. Motorcycle taxis zip around from all possible angles. Chickens rest in cages ready for slaughter. Markets offer pineapples, mangoes, onions, carrots. Busy main streets give way to dirt side alleys that dead end at the train tracks. The smell of burning trash mixes with the aroma of roasting meat.

Another continent. Another world.

As the plane prepared to land today I kept thinking of Suzanne as a baby, a girl and now a young woman. Suzanne who chats up shopkeepers in French, who grabs her mother’s hand as we cross the street. She brought me to this place. This is where our children will take us — if we let them.

Into Africa

Into Africa

I woke up this morning with that familiar jump start. I ran through the possibilities: Is someone I love sick or in need? Is there a work deadline? Something else I have to do?

Oh, that’s right. I’m flying to Africa today.

While the exquisite shorthand of modern travel means this requires very little effort on my part (I live less than 15 minutes from Dulles International Airport), the decisions, postponements and preparation it took to get here have occupied me for more than two years.

This journey, then, begins not just with a single step but with a series of partings, reunions and reflections. They have brought me here, to this point of departure, to this familiar action, boarding a plane. But the plane will take me to another continent, one I’ve never visited before. A universe of its own with customs, climates, peoples, beliefs and practices I can barely begin to fathom.

Travel is, at best, about possibilities. I begin at home. I will land, God willing, in a faraway place, a continent so vast that our country would be swallowed up by it. It’s a place my daughter has come to love. I go there to see her world.


(Photo: Katie Esselburn)

Mine the Gaps

Mine the Gaps

I began this blog in February 2010 with only a vague sense of what I wanted it to be and how long I could continue it. I wasn’t even sure how often I would post. But a few weeks into the project I realized I could post almost every day — at least six days a week — and I’ve done that for  59 months and 1,500 posts.

That’s 1,500 posts exactly. Strange I would notice the total today. Strange because after tomorrow I may not be posting daily. Benin has spotty Internet access, spotty electricity, too. So while I’m taking my laptop in hopes of posting as often as possible, there may be gaps.

However … gaps could be good. Gaps mean less reflecting and more living. Gaps mean life comes at you so quickly that there simply isn’t time to write it down. So, dear readers, if there are gaps, please know I am mining them — and I’ll write about them here soon.

Packing Light

Packing Light

A trip to Africa requires not just one packing list but several. There’s the electronic one I’ve been tapping on my phone whenever I think of something on the run — ear plugs, a headlamp, the Kindle! 

There’s the scribbled one upstairs near the brand new suitcase — kitchen towels for Biba, a book for Apollinaire, candy, gum and pens for other friends I’m about to meet. 

And then there’s the carefully typed list Suzanne sent me a couple weeks ago — her attempt to rein in her mother’s (ahem) over-packing tendencies. After all, she took only two suitcases and a carry-on for two years.

So my new motto is travel light, take only what I need, nothing “just in case.” Let’s see how long it lasts!

The Day After

The Day After

The day after Christmas: filled with boxes and bundles, loading up the car, waving goodbye, saying hello, eating (some more). And then, when it’s almost too late, a walk to the Severn River.

From the warmth and chaos of a family holiday to the pure piercing beauty of a midwinter sunset.

Appreciation

Appreciation


Once again the days have passed, the splendid ones and the trying ones. Once again we’ve come back to this point, which is for me, and for many, the great pause. Christmas Eve. Christmas Day. New Year’s. Once again I’ll re-run this blog post, one I wrote in 2011, which was, I now know, the last holiday Dad would spend in this house.  All the more reason for appreciation:

12/24/11

Our
old house has seen better days. The siding is dented, the walkway is
cracked, the yard is muddy and tracked with Copper’s paw prints. Inside
is one of the fullest and most aromatic trees we’ve ever chopped down.
Cards line the mantel, the fridge is so full it takes ten minutes to
find the cream cheese. Which is to say we are as ready as we will ever
be. The family is gathering. I need to make one more trip to the grocery
store.

This morning I thought about a scene from one of my
favorite Christmas movies, one I hope we’ll have time to watch in the
next few days. In “It’s a Wonderful Life,” Jimmy Stewart has just
learned he faces bank fraud and prison, and as he comes home beside
himself with worry, he grabs the knob of the bannister in his old house — and it comes off in his hand. He is exasperated at this; it seems to represent his failures and shortcomings.

By
the end of the movie, after he’s been visited by an angel, after his
family and friends have rallied around him in an unprecedented way,
after he’s had a chance to see what the world would have been like
without him — he grabs the bannister knob again. And once again, it
comes off in his hand. But this time, he kisses it. The house is still
cold and drafty and in need of repair. But it has been sanctified by
friendship and love and solidarity.

Christmas doesn’t take away
our problems. But it counters them with joy. It reminds us to appreciate
the humble, familiar things that surround us every day, and to draw
strength from the people we love. And surely there is a bit of the
miraculous in that.

Photo: Flow TV

Land Between Fences

Land Between Fences

I still have wrapping to do, cooking and baking, too. Yesterday’s rainy walk was a calm oasis amidst the holiday to-dos.

At one point I found myself walking along a fencerow. To my right, a golf course. To my left, a tangle of trees and brush. It was only halfway down the path that I realized there was a fence on my left, as well.

So this was a double fencerow, the land between fences, uncultivated, unclaimed. Except … it has been put to the best of uses. It leads from the eddies and ripples of Little Difficult Run to the sleek office parks of Blake Lane and Waples Mill Road, and from there (I now know from experience) to lakes and dams and ridges.

It’s a trail, a passageway. It takes us from one place, one reality, to another. And it looks very inviting here, I think — in a Thomas Hardyesque way!