Walk through the Gloaming
These are long days that know how to finish. Light lingers till 9, and tempts the walker to stroll at a time she would normally be getting ready for bed!
These are long days that know how to finish. Light lingers till 9, and tempts the walker to stroll at a time she would normally be getting ready for bed!
Less than two hours west is a different world, one bound by green and dripping boughs. Chalets on the hillside, mountain paths, water trickling over rocks. I won’t glorify these trickles by calling them waterfalls. But the water sings as it flows over stones and through leaves, so these trickles have an aural presence.
Some of the lanes here are paved and some not. Foot paths cross them, heading up the mountain. I may tackle one of them today. But yesterday was a get-acquainted stroll. The end of a long week.
I marveled as I strolled at how much difference a walk can make. And a mountain walk makes even more.
A ho-hum evening after days of cloud and rain. A walk that’s uninspired, plodding. The houses hold no surprises, and the clouds are uniform, without color or texture.
The music in my ears is plodding, too. Tunes heard too often. A switch to news makes little difference.
And then my ears hit the jackpot, a change of tempo. It’s a waltz. Not an obvious one or a schmaltzy one, but I’d recognize 3/4 time anywhere. I find myself counting 1,2, 3; 2,2,3; 3,2,3. Almost hypnotic, that beat. And liberating, too.
It’s like a transfusion. I pick up the pace, I loosen the shoulders. My arms swing more freely by my side. And soon I’m on the downhill slope, toward home and dinner.
As national events heat up and the news changes by the minute, I’m tuning my headset to news stations as I hoof it. It’s not the calm strolls I usually crave, but it makes for some brisk walks and some fascinating internal dialogue.
“How could he?” “Will they really?” “Oh yeah?” “We’ll see about that.”
These conversations take place only in my head, but they are stimulating in their own way.
Walking and talking: It’s the way it is now.
An early walk this morning as the day began. Quiet and dim when I started, flashlight bobbing, illuminating the pavement, but often off, too, so I could savor the darkness before the dawn.
Only one car about at such an hour, for newspaper delivery; otherwise, mechanical stillness to match the natural kind.
I heard crickets, inhaled the scent of newly cut wood and freshly mown grass. And then, finally, a chirp, the first bird.
By the time I got home, the sky was light, the lone bird was a chorus and night had turned to day.
In a few hours I’ll board a train that will take me up the Northeast Corridor to a journalism school reunion. Well, it won’t take me directly there. I’ll land at Penn Station, hop on a subway to 96th Street, check into the hotel, then walk, walk, walk wherever my feet will take me.
Maybe to Central Park, which should be lovely this time of year. The Reservoir Path is nice, or I could dip south to the Sheep Meadow. There will be the castle and the Great Lawn and the arbor and the Ramble.
Later there will be lectures and panels, receptions and dinners. There will be classmates I haven’t seen in years.
But before that, there will be the walk.
Last evening I slipped out at dusk, wearing tennis shoes, office clothes and a rain jacket the color of twilight. It was too late to change into sweatshirt and tights. There was time only for the leaving.
And so I forgot the trappings, the music on a string. I bolted before the moment and the impulse left me. Open on my screen was an article, mind food. Beside me a book of poetry.
They would wait. The walk would be something else, I knew, nourishment of a different kind.
A pre-dawn walk today in a light rain, Cyclops-eye blazing, cap and a hood to keep the drops at bay. These early outings merge into dreamscape. Did I really don shoes and socks and walk to Fox Mill Road and back? Or was that another walk, another day?
By the time I left the house this morning the day had lightened and the rain was steadier. The pink dogwood lifted its arms gracefully on one side of the yard, and the white dogwood took my breath away. In between were ferns, azaleas and forget-me-nots. The familiarity of the spring garden.
It seemed a different day than one hour earlier. A second beginning.
I left the house before six today, walked into a misty morning with piled clouds and a chorus of birdsong. The air had a pastel fullness to it and the light was worthy of Bierstadt.
On mornings like these I leave the music at home so I can better observe the day as it wakes, stretches, waves his arms and opens its eyes.
Today, though, the morning clouded up as I strolled, and fat drops fell. But before they could gain too much traction, the day reversed course once again. Now it’s gloriously sunny and green.
It’s what I’ve wanted to do every day this week as I sat five stories up in a shell of glass and steel — watch the morning unfold, and be inside it as it wakes.
It must be spring cleaning time, because Folkstone Drive has become a bazaar. Within the last few weeks, you could have scored a kitchen cabinet, bathroom vanity and a grill — all sitting on the street, absolutely free!
It’s hard to drive by this stuff without picking it up. It’s that hunting-gathering impulse honed when I lived in New York in my 20s and practically furnished an apartment with pieces drug in off the sidewalk.
But with much internal dialogue (“do you really need a broken grill? don’t you already have one sitting on the deck?”) and a modicum of self-shaming, I’ve managed to ignore this free stuff and act like I’m above it all.
I concentrate instead on the backdrops into which these items are placed and what lies just beyond them — the woods, the flowers, the dogwood, the redbud! What’s always free is the stride and the vista and what I see along the way. Everything else is just gravy.