Today they’re cracked. Two days ago they were wide open, less so as the clouds moved in. I’m talking about the windows, barometers of weather and humidity, of light and darkness.
This morning they usher in cool breezes and the sound of rain. It splashes in the garden, pings in the birdbath, makes music of an ordinary Wednesday morning.
I’ve lived in places where windows were dingy and recalcitrant, barely budging in their sashes. I’ve worked in places where windows were sealed in place, never to be opened.
Once the windows in this house balked and squeaked. But for many years they’ve been compliant creatures, and I’m so glad they are. Because today, I can open them just enough to hear the rain.
Yesterday I made my seasonal pilgrimage to the nursery to buy annuals for spring planting. Every year I seem more reluctant to spend money on plants that only bloom once. Is it creeping stinginess or am I finally coming to my senses?
I think the latter. After all, the plants that look so glorious on a brilliant, blue-sky May morning can shrivel and droop as early as late June. Better to make do with what I have, to plant the zinnia seeds (soon!) and be patient for color in the garden.
And then there are the deer that skulk around looking for their next meal. They’d like nothing more than to tuck into some succulent new plants.
Gardening in the suburbs: It’s not for the faint-of-heart.
I had to watch the replay on Sunday to see Journalism win the Preakness. The horse was well behind for most of the race. At the top of the stretch a clump of horses hemmed him in.
When he began to accelerate, a colt named Goal Oriented blocked him. There was a tussle, a bump, and then Journalism was free, streaking toward the frontrunner, Gosger. There seemed no way that Journalism could make up the difference before the finish line after the jostling he’d just endured. But somehow, he did.
He moved like the great ones did, with seemingly supernatural power, as if distances were meant to be gobbled up, as if he was born to run on this track, at Pimlico, in the last race before it closes for more than a year of renovation.
“Journalism has won the Preakness Stakes in a performance like you read about,” the announcer shouted, hoarse from calling the race. Later, he said, “A remarkable recovery by Journalism” and “Journalism has its day.”
An old friend has returned. I can feel his weight in the air, his hand on my shoulder. He frizzes my hair and thickens my step. His name is humidity, and he often shows up this time of year.
I thrive in his presence … up to a point. At the very least, I don’t disparage him as much as some folks do. To me, he’s the price we pay for the climate we have, which is, at least for me, a fine one. Plenty of sunshine, even in the winter. Long springs and falls. And summers, well, they’re not everyone’s cup of tea, but I don’t mind them much.
Today we’ll have temperatures in the mid-80s. The air is full of moisture, which matches the sodden soil. Thunderstorms may pop up in the afternoon. It’s my old friend humidity, doing his thing. Time to get to know him again.
I woke up this morning in a house I’ve been waking up in for half of my life. This would have been big news to the 20-and-30-something me, who moved from Chicago to Kentucky to New York City to Arkansas to Massachusetts to Virginia. Seventeen moves in seventeen years, as I once admitted in an essay.
But it’s been Virginia for decades. I settled down, as did many of my compatriots. About one of every five Americans moved in the 1960s. Today it’s only one of every 13, thanks to a combination of zoning laws, historic preservation campaigns and rampant NIMBYism, according to a recent Atlantic magazine article by Yoni Appelbaum (adapted from his book Stuck: How the Privileged and Propertied Broke the Engine of American Opportunity). Mobility is freedom, mobility is opportunity — and these have been in short supply lately, says Appelbaum.
For years I might have agreed with him, or at least with aspects of his argument (which I realize is about socioeconomic conditions, not what I’m exploring in this post). I felt trapped here from the beginning: plopped down in the suburbs with young kids. As a full-time freelance writer, I had plenty of contact with interviewees and editors, but I seldom saw them. For years I raged against the ‘burbs.
But I’ve come to appreciate the benefits of staying put. “We marry ourselves to creation by knowing and cherishing a particular place,” writes Scott Russell Sanders. If I were offered any place in this country to send down roots, I might not have chosen this particular place — but I could do worse, far worse. Most importantly, the babies grew up and started families of their own, and two of them have settled nearby.
Now when I wake up in this house, I know I’m home.
Peonies have been in beautiful bloom the last week or two. I’ve admired them in neighbor’s yards and on my table, a gift from my daughter’s new garden.
My peony harvest is much smaller: it’s an “on” year for the single peony plant in my backyard. A plant that has never thrived but also never died. Some years it produces one flower, some years none. It’s long since been surrounded by day lilies and iris, so there’s no room for it to roam, not that peonies spread much anyway.
This year it seems like a tease … or an invitation. Plant more of me, it says. Find a deer-safe patch of soil and create some more of my kind. It’s lonely out here.
Yesterday, while writing in my “summer place,” a corner of the glass-topped table on the desk, I spied a lizard skittering along the boards. Our corner of Fairfax County is full of wildlife. I routinely see fox and deer, the cries of hawks and pileated woodpeckers fill the skies, and a few weeks ago I saw a wild turkey slowly crossing the main street of our neighborhood, on his way from one patch of woods to another.
But lizards have been in short supply. In fact, I don’t believe I’ve ever seen one here before.
This little guy brought to mind the subtropical world of southern Florida, where lizards are king. I’ve spent many hours watching their tiny movements, their habit of bowing up and down, as if they’re doing tiny pushups. I bet there’s a scientific term and explanation for this, but I’m too lazy to look it up now.
What I can say is that I will be on the lookout for this fellow. Maybe he will become hawk food … but I hope not. I’d like to see him again. He brings with him a whiff of the faraway.
Yesterday’s post was about Mom, and today’s is inspired by Dad, on what would have been his 102nd birthday. There aren’t many left of his generation, what’s been called “the greatest.” I don’t recall Dad having much to say about that moniker, but his World War II service was a defining feature of his life, and he rests now in a military cemetery.
He was only 20 years old when he climbed into the tail gunner’s seat of a B-17 bomber and flew on bombing raids from Britain’s East Anglia to Germany and back. He was lucky to arrive when he did. Casualty rates were much higher before fighter escorts began in early 1944.
What his generation had that subsequent ones did not is a call to serve that was impossible to ignore. If I was running the country, I would require an obligatory year of national service. Not only would it help repair the nation’s infrastructure (imagine all that youthful enthusiasm and muscle power) but it would also patch up the divisiveness that threatens to tear us apart.
Such plans have been proposed, I believe, but given the other problems besetting the country, aren’t high on anyone’s list. They should be, though … and I bet Dad would approve.
(The entrance to the mess hall at Horham, where Dad was stationed. Photo courtesy One Last Look: A Sentimental Journey to the Eighth Air Force Heavy Bomber Bases of World War II in England.)
A day for mothers, for my daughters who are mothers, and for my own mother, gone ten years this October. I can’t complain; she lived a long life. But it’s never long enough, is it?
I have so much to tell her, so many questions to ask about her family, about aging with grace, about the hereafter, starting with … does it exist?
In the old days, when women routinely wore corsages, a pink carnation signified that your mother was living and a white carnation that she had passed away. What a lovely tradition, akin to mourning crepe and black arm bands, a way to tell the world that you are grieving, that you are, even if old enough to be grandmother, a motherless child.
(Alas, no carnation photos, but this pale pink rose is almost white.)
He grew up in Chicago, went to college in Pennsylvania. Opinions are divided about whether he roots for the Cubs or the White Sox.* But one fact is clear: Cardinal Robert Prevost is now Pope Leo XIV, the leader of 1.2 billion Catholics around the world.
In the hours before white puffs of smoke appeared above the Vatican roof, I’d been refreshing my news feed. There was a buzz, a sense of anticipation. People were gathering in St. Peter’s Square. News seemed imminent. When it actually happened I was away from a screen, grabbing a bite of lunch before driving to an appointment.
What matters, of course, is that it did happen, what most thought never could: an American pope. It seemed miraculous enough to have a pope from Latin America. And with Pope Leo we have that too: he’s spent decades in Peru and is a naturalized citizen of that country.
An internationalist, a linguist, a builder of bridges, Pope Leo XIV also chose a name that bodes well. His immediate predecessor is known for his emphasis on Catholic social teaching in the encyclical Rerum Novarum, and on the importance of combining faith with reason, as he revitalized the teachings of St. Thomas Aquinas. (I learned these facts in my recent class; who says the liberal arts aren’t relevant?)
Now, the new pope begins the task of leading a fractious church. “Evil will not prevail,” he said in perfect Italian as he stood on the balcony and stilled the raucous crowd in the square. “We are all in the hands of God.”
*The matter has been resolved since I wrote this post: Pope Leo is a Sox fan.
(The Basilica of the Immaculate Conception sits next to the Catholic University of America, established by Pope Leo XIII.)
